Our mind & its games

Independent life is a real/true demand of our conscience. A frivolous life, though is just a fleeting rendition of our mind. The projection is so strong that it takes away all our resolutions in a tide. It happens when our mind is not accompanied by true intellect. But in all this turbulence, our ‘self’ suffers. As our mind, body & intellect function in the reign of ‘self’ & with its power. Like the moon doesn’t have its own light, yet it shines in the domain of Sun. Sun remains unaffected. But unlike sun we assume ourselves to be mind or body & hence the ‘suffering’. Without our ‘self’ the mind cant exist & the body will be lifeless. Intellect is the tool of the ‘self’ to operate mind & body in order to function in this virtual world.

Our mind actually is self sufficient but we don’t accept or realize. All incidences, joy & sorrow, happened & dissolve, but our mind derives the pain & pleasure by wandering in their memories.
But then our aspirations & apprehensions are also such wanderings. Yet, without any physical incidence, they give zeal or anxiety.
So summing up, our mind projects everything. It has very little to do with reality. Reality is how we perceive it, it doesn’t have its own identity.
Just discover your ‘idleness’ 
The biggest irony is that the woes of life actually bring us closer to our ‘self’. Our mind regains strength with that but we let it waste again in trivial pursuits. Our mind’s true nature is constant change & excitement, though the body calls for an established pattern with minimal variation else it gets disturbed. This conflict leads us to being exhausted.
They both are being true to their nature but we aren’t. We are governed by them, instead of opposite.

Its been so long, lets go back home where we are always our 'self’ free of paradox, misery, conflicts battles & struggles. Only love, peace & bliss prevails & spreads.

The biggest irony

Its so provident how the ordainer fills milk in the mother's chest even before the child is born. Yet all our life we struggle/strive for filling our stomach (satisfy hunger).

We have all witnessed the symptoms of this illness which has engulfed the entire human race since forever. Its like a recurring T-sunami, just the level differs for each individual. What we aspire, plan, dream, hope, expect, desire, want, organise, doesnt happen in our accordance. Out of all that happens, it is not totally upto our liking or acceptance resulting in desparity, pessimism, anger, frustration, depression, supression, etc.

Now finally even when we choose the things or instances that we liked, none of them stay forever with us. Yet everytime somebody dies or gets ill, we tend to forget the former as if its his/her exclusive fate or send get well soon card n flowers, so they dont realize they have failed.

The simple most example of our failure is from our own body. Imagine the number of hours we put to sleep, eat, excrete, bath, urinate, drink, wear, rest, cover, shelter, care for our body. Even when the results are lop-sided so evidently when it constantly betrays us. We ignore them blindly & claim our control. We even advocate & make claims outside our body.

Ever wondered how grief stays longer than joy. We have to keep supporting pics, videos, letters, etc of so called 'happy moments'. But sorrows remain on their own. It indicates our quest for fun, joy, love, care, recognition, acquistion, security. In another words doing everything to neglect that we gonna die one day & none of this will stay with us & there is nothing we have done about it, not even discovered our purpose of being here. 

We must realize that our lives are like waiting at the station or going on a tour for sight-seeing. You are courteous to everyone & appreciate the beauty around. We dont make attachment with any thing, person or situation as there ephemeral nature is so care to us. We dont build houses or permanent bonds like marraige (symbolically). You just chill out witnessing & appreciating things as they are.

Just think are you living life like its yours or is it begged & slogged for. Is it somebody else's to govern? Are you gonna let go of this beautiful chance in pursuit of the transient.

Accept it, we are victims of amnesia & we must work out to know who we are & where did we come from & what for. Instead of just blindly believing in the name & parents we were told by someone to be true. We have probably just added attributes to this fake identity.