We have a incessant
construction going on in our head. The world we keep building and modifying
within. We keep picking elements knowingly and unknowingly, on a subconscious
level. Hence losing our purity and innocence in the process. As no matter what
the reality is, we make a world for ourselves based on our prior experience,
exposure and mindset. There is no neutrality only biased view point. We
constantly pick likes & dislikes, cool & not cool, tasteful & not,
new or repetitive, etc. After collecting all these fragments every moment, we
have what is generally referred to as outlook, viewpoint or even attitude
towards things. Generally, most of our upbringing is focused on materialistic
values as in studying, career and jobs/profession/business with occasional
drift here & there towards values of life. In our schools moral science is
looked upon as an extra subject and hardly anyone pats your back if you score
well or highest in it. What is the broader aim of life, what kind of person
should you be, righteousness & helping/contributing others as well society;
all these questions are debatable and based on personal choices. Our personal
gains always take the precedence. Though everyone vouches for success and
appreciates successful people. In this race people take shortcuts and not so
legitimate means at times.
Where exactly are we heading?
What is the end purpose of our various pursuits? Certainly, it should be more
than ending up in a funeral pyre or grave. Irrespective of anything and
everything we all do end up there eventually. Is it to lead `a happy life’ for
us and our dear ones? What exactly is `a happy life’? We don’t draw
satisfaction from the same activity or achievement in the same level at every
given point. But nobody lets any such realization dawn upon them fully before
they have moved on to searching for something new & next. Thankfully,
sooner or later life serves us and shows us new possibilities, to what ends.
So based on our living and
the imaginary world we have created within us, there is a sort of code of
conduct we have formed for our individual self. We adhere to it fully and
partially as & when it suits. Nobody really questions you for that; its for
your eyes only. As there are many unanswered, unsolved, inexplicable instances
in our imaginary world. There are many conflicts there everyday which nobody
can see and nobody can judge you for. We can be whoever we desire in our world,
we can cheat, rush and skip any rules. Thankfully scientists have not been able
to create a device to picturize what goes on in one’s head, it certainly wouldn’t
be ‘a happy film about a happy life’. We rise and fall in our eyes, in our
world all the time. Some people luckily find others in front of whom they can
open up completely and reveal to a great extent the actual happenings of our
private world. But its hard to find the same frequency with another person all
the time as even that person has their own world to manage.
People like to gather for
events, parties, get together, etc. who have this common reception of various
degrees for a certain activity. Or they are trying to seek similar worlds in
others head unknowingly. Much like our quest to find water on other planets. If
we are successful in such an attempt it makes for ‘a happy day or event in our
happy life’. Books, movies, television and live show are often a binding agent
when our connection gets weak with reality and its hard to pick anything from
it. These mediums further provide imagination for our imaginary world. Its like
dreaming in a dream.
In the end its still not very
clear what exactly are we seeking, how to hold on to what we have found and
where will we find more. Our ‘pursuit of happiness’ seems frivolous and
yielding only fleeting success. Do we really know and understand what to strive
for and how? Is there something everlasting at all?
I hope for now, every now and
then, if we just step aside our imaginary world or come out of it then new
& true possibilities can emerge. There can be sliver of harmony amongst us,
our peers, our society & country and above all with nature.