Are you fulfilled? Or you seeking fulfillment

Every second of your waking life you seeking fulfillment in some manner or you striving hard to get bored and tired. Please ask yourself. Do you spend the whole day everyday discovering new ways of getting bored and sleep off. Or some of you call yourself successful or settled as you have found a batch of repetitive drills (with occasional changes & breaks) to go through before you get tired and sleep off.
Don’t even try to advocate any of the mundane things you do saying that they are fulfilling? Running so much all the time haven’t we lost meaning of fulfillment? I’ll give you an example, suppose you work for me. At month’s end I give your salary to you for half an hour and keep you in the office itself for that period. After that I take it back as it is, would that fulfill your sense of achievement of that hard earned salary. Would you gladly or satisfactorily leave? No sane person would, much rather you might give me a tight slap. As fulfillment is only when it lasts, it stays.
Now, one can say that even when you spend that salary it goes away but you exercise your right of choice. You let go of that money to get something better, some comfort (pleasure) or security. The point being that having a Danish pastry seems fulfilling to some but how long does the taste lingers or the satisfaction stays? Only till you have a craving for it next time or if you are instantly bored, you want to do something else next.

There is nothing wrong or out of world in seeking comfort, security, satisfaction or fulfillment. It’s indeed the most natural way of living. I don’t even say that being ambitious leads you to dissatisfaction as your aspirations are not always fulfilled, nor would I say that a real hero keeps fighting till the end, or never gives up on hope, or sees failure as encouragement to try again. We’ll leave this kind of wisdom for Self help or motivational books. Let us spare ourselves from this illusion. But where I beg to differ is to seek or aspire for the truth, meaning something that stays with you. After having which, nothing can take away the state of being content with your achievement. As what good is climbing Mount Everest if there are still thousands of more & higher ones out there. Aim for the highest peak, so that no trivial & petty circumstances, people, expectations and situations can take it away from you. It’s worth spending a lifetime or even more for such an ambition.

Ever met an artist, musician or social worker living away from the mainstream? Spending all the time in his pursuit, with the shimmer of satisfaction and smile on his face. Well mostly people who have too many people around them to remind that they have achieved or they have reached great heights, are often lured & disillusioned more with the fame and less with their real purpose or achievement. Sometimes when the fame fades, their fulfillment fades too but exponentially. That’s why I am particularly asking for the so called `unsung heroes’ but the ones who don’t brag about what they have, where they have reached, what they know, what they achieved, what they learned. If you notice closely you’d find a subtle calmness to their state of being, a higher level of satisfaction rare to find as it stays with them. As by giving themselves to some selfless practice or purpose they have found their being closer to themselves. They have the potential of Self Realization. As they know to value of their Self more than anything outside including your mind & body.

Unfortunately much can’t be described in words about this state; you have to be it to know it. It only comes with realization (profound experience), a fleeting glimpse cannot suffice. If any passerby could hinder your being, could hinder your satisfaction, your contentment or if even after years of living life you still can’t hold yourself with unexpected & unforeseen events, unfulfilled expectations still dither your calm & composed state then ponder now before your time ends. As the clock is running for everyone and time is of course unexpectedly limited.
Good luck.